Guess all we have is the moment. How many times have I caught myself not being satisfied in the moment? Curious if that has ever happened to you?
Reminds me of a friend, who seemed to have to always be doing something or busy. In that respect we are opposites.
So two in my life I was playing lots of chess to develop discipline. My big spend it could been $49.95 or a hundred dollars was the talking chess machine from believe it or not Radio Shack-once the owner of the world’s largest collection of vacuum tubes. At some point passed level eight the computer really slowed down and would take maybe 30 minutes to make a decision. So one day I am playing a game and think “If I lose my queen for a pawn-I think I win,” and it took me some time to actually make a move and then when I did I won.
Another time, many years later I was trying out new opening moves and I got to a nice mid-game and really wasn’t really great at forecasting wins in advance and thought, “it will be a heck of a battle and I will win.”
And then I froze. And I realized I did. In this game you couldn’t take moves back like with my old computer. Finally, I moved-it was only just a game and a battle was had and I won. Keep on moving in the right “imperfectly perfect” direction.
Anyone remember Circuit City? One day just browsing or killing time that I didn’t have to kill (poor time) I see this really at least back then a really attractive woman and I circled the store and then did it again thinking of a witty way to approach her and then I did it again I started to see myself like a plane with no spot to land. “I have to get out of here,” and then one more approach and the swoop I was face-to-face with her and told her the above story and she laughed and asked me out for a cup of coffee and I said, “No.”
Not a coffee drinker.
Moral: Make that call. Write that story. Send that email. Keep on honing your skills-no matter what they say and stop waiting for the perfect storm of events to take place.