On Waiting.

Grief therapist Francis Weller writes in his book, The Wild Edge of Sorrow, to wake each day and say, “I am one day closer to my death. So how will I live this day? I do not want to waste this day.”

Guess all we have is the moment. How many times have I caught myself not being satisfied in the moment? Curious if that has ever happened to you?

Reminds me of a friend, who seemed to have to always be doing something or busy. In that respect we are opposites.

So two in my life I was playing lots of chess to develop discipline. My big spend it could been $49.95 or a hundred dollars was the talking chess machine from believe it or not Radio Shack-once the owner of the world’s largest collection of vacuum tubes. At some point passed level eight the computer really slowed down and would take maybe 30 minutes to make a decision. So one day I am playing a game and think “If I lose my queen for a pawn-I think I win,” and it took me some time to actually make a move and then when I did I won.

Another time, many years later I was trying out new opening moves and I got to a nice mid-game and really wasn’t really great at forecasting wins in advance and thought, “it will be a heck of a battle and I will win.”

And then I froze. And I realized I did. In this game you couldn’t take moves back like with my old computer. Finally, I moved-it…